I Am Transgender

By | May 22, 2015

As big of an announcement as this is, I don’t think it will come as a shock to most of you. In fact, I bet many of you simply assumed this. I am transgender. In the last few weeks, I’ve come out to my family and friends, started electrolysis, and began my hormone therapy today.

Day Zero Face
Day Zero.

I have had an interest in transgender things for a lot time, but I didn’t always consider myself transgender. For a long time, I refused to believe it for various reasons. One of the main reasons I didn’t want to think of myself as transgender was because I always assumed the process wasn’t very good. I thought that the best case scenario I could reach was to be an ugly mix of a man and woman, and I didn’t want to try and be something I could never be.

It was last August that I saw a video of a guy who was much more masculine than I am, and he turned into a beautiful woman. I did more and more research, and I found that the process of transitioning from male to female was actually very good, especially if you started young, and could afford additional options to help the transition. Knowing that it was possible, I started taking it into serious consideration.

I wanted to go through several months of deep thought to mull it over, and make sure this was something I really wanted to commit to. Last August happened to be when I moved out from my parents, and it gave me freedom to try new things. It was also in August that started my dieting and exercise, because the thought of transitioning gave me the inspiration to finally break out from being overweight. As you saw recently, went from 225 to 170 pounds in the eight months I was considering to transition.

It was in the beginning of May that I reached my weight loss goal, and after months of growing more confident in my dream, it was at that point I was committed to transitioning. I told my family a few weeks ago, and they were all very accepting and supportive. Given that I run a transgender website and business, I can’t say any of them were terribly shocked. This made things much easier for me to come out than what is normal for other people. Out of all the people I’ve told so far, I haven’t gotten one negative reaction, and everyone has been supportive of me.

Day Zero Body

I wanted to start hormones in early May, but due to several unexpected delays, I had to wait until May 21th to start taking the pills. I couldn’t be happier now that I’m finally starting. As is typical, I’m starting on a lose dosage of estrogen, and testosterone blockers. You need to spend several months easing your body up to a full dosage, or else it wouldn’t be good for you.

In addition to the weight loss and prescriptions, you can see that I’ve been growing out my hair for nearly a year. Also, I started electrolysis (hair removal) three weeks ago. I’ll go into more detail on hair removal in the near future.

I plan on doing a lot of documentation on my transition over the coming months and years. I took over 35 different body measurements before starting hormones so that I can see how my body will change. I took a ton of pictures yesterday as well. I plan on taking a few pictures everyday along the way, and probably using them in a timeline video once I’m close to finished in the transition process. Besides monitoring what is changing around my body, the other reason I’m doing all of this documentation is to help people out there who are considering transitioning themselves. Hopefully this will give them ideas of what to expect, when to expect it, and what the before and after pictures may look like.

Expect many more updates in the future. I plan on doing one every several weeks, or whenever I have any developments to report. Things will start off slow, and it’ll be a while before real results start to happen. I’m a very patient person, but I can’t wait to see it.
Oh, and one final thing: you can still call me Sam. It works either way. πŸ™‚

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6 years ago

Fox statue!!! πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ

7 years ago

Dear Samuel soon to be Samantha,
I think this decision is great. At first I was surprised but putting thought to it, it was a matter of time to hear about this. I’m not sure how much Catlyn Jenner influenced this decision but I have a tremendous respect for the LGBT community I think they deserve they’re rights and I’m positive you’ll look great as a woman and I whatever makes you happy will satisfy us.
Hope you have a great future, Timetodie55

James Caras
7 years ago

Should I call you Samantha ?

7 years ago

me too sam im at the beginning trying to search for doctors

Reply to  megakjhay
7 years ago

congrats and good luck

7 years ago

Sam I thank you need a real man to take care of you and look after you

7 years ago

Good for you! Best wishes in the process going forward πŸ™‚ I’m going through the same thing right now and with you luck πŸ™‚

Reply to  Cecelia
7 years ago

you need a real man to look after you and care for you girl

James Caras
7 years ago

What name are you going to assume after you have completed your transition ?

Aussie 736
7 years ago

To answer your question Xdude, being gay or lesbian and being transgender are two totaly diffrent things. Being gay or lesbian, is about what gender you are sexually attracted to. Where as being or feeling transgender is about how you feel in the body you are in. Just because somebody changes the sex they were when they were born, doesn’t automaticly change their sexuality. I have several transgender friends, and some are attracted to “the same sex” and some are attracted to “the opposite sex”. Also, congratulations Sam on your decision. For having the courage to be who you know… Read more Β»