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As big of an announcement as this is, I don’t think it will come as a shock to most of you. In fact, I bet many of you simply assumed this. I am transgender. In the last few weeks, I’ve come out to my family and friends, started electrolysis, and began my hormone therapy today.

Day Zero Face
Day Zero.

I have had an interest in transgender things for a lot time, but I didn’t always consider myself transgender. For a long time, I refused to believe it for various reasons. One of the main reasons I didn’t want to think of myself as transgender was because I always assumed the process wasn’t very good. I thought that the best case scenario I could reach was to be an ugly mix of a man and woman, and I didn’t want to try and be something I could never be.

It was last August that I saw a video of a guy who was much more masculine than I am, and he turned into a beautiful woman. I did more and more research, and I found that the process of transitioning from male to female was actually very good, especially if you started young, and could afford additional options to help the transition. Knowing that it was possible, I started taking it into serious consideration.

I wanted to go through several months of deep thought to mull it over, and make sure this was something I really wanted to commit to. Last August happened to be when I moved out from my parents, and it gave me freedom to try new things. It was also in August that started my dieting and exercise, because the thought of transitioning gave me the inspiration to finally break out from being overweight. As you saw recently, went from 225 to 170 pounds in the eight months I was considering to transition.

It was in the beginning of May that I reached my weight loss goal, and after months of growing more confident in my dream, it was at that point I was committed to transitioning. I told my family a few weeks ago, and they were all very accepting and supportive. Given that I run a transgender website and business, I can’t say any of them were terribly shocked. This made things much easier for me to come out than what is normal for other people. Out of all the people I’ve told so far, I haven’t gotten one negative reaction, and everyone has been supportive of me.

Day Zero Body

I wanted to start hormones in early May, but due to several unexpected delays, I had to wait until May 21th to start taking the pills. I couldn’t be happier now that I’m finally starting. As is typical, I’m starting on a lose dosage of estrogen, and testosterone blockers. You need to spend several months easing your body up to a full dosage, or else it wouldn’t be good for you.

In addition to the weight loss and prescriptions, you can see that I’ve been growing out my hair for nearly a year. Also, I started electrolysis (hair removal) three weeks ago. I’ll go into more detail on hair removal in the near future.

I plan on doing a lot of documentation on my transition over the coming months and years. I took over 35 different body measurements before starting hormones so that I can see how my body will change. I took a ton of pictures yesterday as well. I plan on taking a few pictures everyday along the way, and probably using them in a timeline video once I’m close to finished in the transition process. Besides monitoring what is changing around my body, the other reason I’m doing all of this documentation is to help people out there who are considering transitioning themselves. Hopefully this will give them ideas of what to expect, when to expect it, and what the before and after pictures may look like.

Expect many more updates in the future. I plan on doing one every several weeks, or whenever I have any developments to report. Things will start off slow, and it’ll be a while before real results start to happen. I’m a very patient person, but I can’t wait to see it.
Oh, and one final thing: you can still call me Sam. It works either way. :)

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  1. Profile photo of KamakaniKamakani

    Hey there sam,

    Congrats on beginning your transition! I have been on hormones myself for about 6 years or so. I’m also an advocate for the lgbt community primarily trans individuals. And although you may be in a whole other area I’d be more than happy to help if you need any additional support as well :)


  2. Profile photo of AngieAngie

    I’m so happy for you sweetie! :-) I have never met you and who knows might someday. I’ve been transitioning for about 2 1/2 yrs now and am always here (and I’m sure you have other Brothers/Sisters too šŸ˜‰ ) if ya need anything. Congrats and TOTALLY love this site……and does make a lil more sense now šŸ˜‰ Sending lots of love and congrats sweetie <3 <3 <3 <3 :-) :-) :-)

  3. Profile photo of FwordFword

    I would like to add that I wish you success on your journey and apologize if I picked an inappropriate place to make my comment. You may feel free to remove it without remorse.

  4. Profile photo of FwordFword

    I like your content and I’d love to be able to continue to participate. I do think it’s a good value, I know what a challenge this kind of content is to make. Unfortunately, I’ve run into some financial trouble where even the minimal amount necessary to stay a subscriber here puts me at risk. I don’t see an easy way to unsubscribe, I will try to do this through paypal, I’d appreciate it if you would likewise see to it that I’m not billed any more. When things are better, I’ll check back and resubscribe.

    The only alternative I have here would be to offer services you may or may not need in terms of web development. I have a lot of skill there. At this point I don’t know that it’s something I can continue to do.

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    I’ve been a long time admirer of your work (from DeviantArt and Youtube) and I couldn’t be more happier for you. I mean it and although you have a long journey ahead of you, I wish you nothing but the best. I’ve been thinking of transitioning myself in a few years, but it’s a leap of faith for me. My family is more oriented towards what they consider the traditional schema; maybe one day I’ll summon the courage, but in the meantime I look forward toward your transition into a new life. Here’s to your new life!



  6. Profile photo of BradBrad

    Dear Sapphire,

    I’m not one who usually leaves comments. I don’t know you other than through your work, which I both love and hate at the same time. That’s because I wish it were so easy in real life. Job, money and health insurance problems have kept me from transitioning in the past (although things are starting to swing back in my favor). It’s good that you have a supportive family. It’s also great that you have a job that you are unlikely to lose. Either could see you through the times ahead. And you have both. I am very happy to hear such good news and wish you the very best (though I may be a bit envious too). I think you’ve set yourself up for success.

    Brad R.

  7. Profile photo of StarjjaStarjja

    I want to say that your not alone here. I’ve been a subscriber for quite awhile now and I found your site to be place where I could feel that anything is possible as long as you really want it more then anything. You opened my eyes the first time I watched a video you had on YouTube before you established this site. It all seems so long ago now that I came out to my family and friends. I wont deny its been hard but I found if you can find a strong support network of individual’s that understand what its like it can make the transition a blessing unfortunately many of us don’t have such strong support I wont bore you or anyone with my story but I wanted to reach out to you and give my support and I wish you all the best. :)

    1. Profile photo of echaosechaos

      I am proud of you. Never met you and probably never will. I am also transgendered but I never had the strength to become who I was supposed to be. I am now in my 40s and I live vicariously through your work. Thank you for the fredom that you have given to me xx

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